Backtrack: 10-Aug-10

Sucks with the video.

I can't seem to write anything earlier, so i took a break - from anything else,

opened up a new browser and played the blue train by Asian Kung-fu Generation.

One of my favorite bands.

I find watching music videos a fascinating past time.

it's not like, we get attracted to the songs or what not.

Yes, i get attracted to the song, partly.

to the singer (much so, if they're uber goodlooking), the instruments the bands play with (much so, if i see the Gibson/Fender that i really really wanted),

the background, or the underlying theme that was being used.

I like gothic ones, bloody ones, dark and almost depressing.

More so, if the song's really one.

I'm not a fan of pop, of love songs or freaky ballads.

I don't hate the classics nor am i obsessed with it.

whenever i hear them, it'll only depends on my mood if i'll not skip them.

I take everything for granted.

Figures isn't?

maybe i'll wake up with my eyes gouged out, my limbs cut off or my hearing impaired.

but the scary thing is,

i can't say that i'm really bothered by that.

i couldn't care less that i'm going bald tomorrow or i'll get killed the next second.

Cause you'll never know what happens when everything you just thought about happened.

And i decided to live not wanting to know,

like, i wanted everything to just come in bunch of surprises.

Loving spoilers and being spoiled are two different things after all.

Notice how my writing seems to have less of a passion.

Maybe because, i'm just doing this to pass the time.

Not that my heart is already in it,

maybe i'll go at it later... when i feel like it.

(some time later)

And when I say, i feel like it, i meant I feel like it.

i just remembered that lady at a cafeteria in the university

(mind you, there are a LOT of cafeterias in the university)

I found out that she gave me an excess of 50 pesos in my change.

(I paid a hundred, i got a 120 change)

of course i didn't notice it until i was at the library sometime later.

i didn't return it.

even if my conscience's already nagging me, i didn't care.

i'm sick of being broke.

maybe bad karma'll strike back - the hell do i care.

I also reviewed a whole chapter on chemistry,

i still have... let's see... five more?

the exam's in 3 days. three freaking days.

and i still have to finish another RDR, a worksheet, then create another RDR.

i'm starting to get annoyed with my own incapability of doing things right.

So there, i'm vowing that i'll aim higher (higher than JUST PASS),,

like, i really need to quit slacking and work some more.

It's not like may parents are the ones who's going to suffer when i fail all my exams and fail my whole semester.

I AM.

Me, myself and I.

My vanity, my pride, MY EGO - a HUGE chunk of this stupid life.

trip to oblivion

speeding downhil

the business of fads and wads

spit into the nicely done cake

get sued for paying exact

whatever.