The reason i got hooked up with final fantasy was because everybody else seemed to like it.
and i'm just this typical moron who loves to be on the trend.
But who am i kidding,
deep down inside me, no matter how much i try to demy it.
i'm stil that loser who's also called a weirdo.
i'm weird, i know.
i got hurt when my crush wrote 'weird' on my back sometime in high school.
You must be wondering why am i still upn at this crazy hour.
(not that uou knew that, you don;t see me anyhow. i can't sleep with reading those fanfics
and i don't see myself sleeping until there's a thin white light in the horion,
whoever invented the internet is such a great guy... sometimes.
i mean, think about it: he's great when we need escape, he's not when we face reality)
So here, i just finished washing the dishes, at 2am, BTW.
and my dad shut off the freaking telly, before that.
they got sucked into watching avatar, the last airbender
it was so fucking infuriating.
mainly because i'm a big zutara fan.
i just want the avatar to die on his mission so that katara and zuko can finally get together.
oh, and mei too.
i wish writing RDRs is THIS fun.
i mean, i love writing and all, but let's face it.
THAT's science, you don't need to write about it.
i love simple statistics, basic math operations, but i never liked writing boring science reports
WTH, even though i can't seem to agree or anything.
FUCK.
later. it's just getting really boring.
8 August '10
(The afternoon after)
So yeah, i'm still here. Woke up late. Ate late. Did my chores late.
The end product? I'm still here waiting in the starting point.
waiting for a miracle to happen.
The miracle? like, smething to take over my life right now.
A big wave or something, just to wash away these stupid thoughts, the stupid insecurities.
Oh, and this stupid life itself.
FUCK YOU.
i could tell, my dad's having problems.
the way he keeps on shutting himself to the world,
either sleeping or immersed in his stupid laptop doing everything weird.
like, NOT working and just watching those Shakira music videos or spanish rocks and music.
Whatever.
it's not like i care,
i would be very happy if they told me to stop and take another leave at school for the next semester.
ruin my life for all i care.
my tumblr page took too long to open up,
i think i forgot all i was going to post.
stupid fluctuating internet connection.
I also have to leave tomorrow.
i need to do my RDRs and doing them here is not exactly a good idea.
considering the fact that whatever schoolwork i do here, gets suck into a blackhole.
ANOTHER FUCK YOU.
My mom also went home today.
goodbye nights of sleeping late.
goodbye slacking off.
goodbye to you, responsibility that weighs down my head.
I'm free, thank you very much.
i can go out, come home late.
just NOT here.
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