Fit in

Woke up, threw on the clothes
Laid out last night
It doesn’t matter whether I eat
It’s not as if they’ll figure it out
Walked on, this everyday habit of mine
Checked out my clothes
It doesn’t matter if I’m late
It’s not as if they care about

Do I look the same?
Do I not stand out?
Its okay, it’s cool
I just want to fit in

Tired of being treated like an invisible wall
A fly, like nobody even spotted me
Tired of being ignored all the time
Worse than being all alone
It’s as simple as being needed
I want to be known, so I’ll feel my worth
I want to fit in, for what’s its worth
I just want to fit in

Went home from school
Late last night
Doesn’t matter, where I went
It’s not that it matter where I stood my ground
Walked on, bells ringing in my ears
They sure could bang it with ease
It doesn’t matter who I’m with
There’s never really one to begin with

Do I look insane?
Do I feel surreal?
Is it really okay? Is it really cool?
When all I really wanted was a crowd to fit in

Tired of feeling insecure and frail
A little grass on a soccer field
Tired of being passed on and used
Worse than the feeling, you don’t belong
I want to be talked to, like a normal person should
I want to be thanked, for all I did
I really just want to fit in

Just want not to feel worthless
A little kid lost in parade
Just want not to feel pain
The feeling of torture self-inflict
Tired of being a jerk just to fit in
Tired of holding back anguish and tears
Don’t wan to care if I show my fears
Is it all bad when I just want to fit in?