An excerpt from September 27, 2007

It's gone...

The bliss that was once there.. it's gone
from what i can tell The walls i have destroyed was building again,
the gap that separated us was now too wide
Too wide!
I guess, it's the difference that was present.
The difference in time,
the difference in distance..
I cannot hope now that there'll be an us..
I should not at all hope that there could be...
I had once given up and moved on
but yet he had called again
What's past, is not to be lived at..
He said so himself
A sign? probably..

Now, i can only hope
but i can't, i need to give up hope.
I can't just live my life,
waiting for him to remember me.
I need to move on
I need to stop, I just need to.

If i could only know what he feels
if i could only know,
then i can just stop,
i can just stop hoping.. dreaming.
I really want to see him,,
Damn! it's so complicated
it's right i know,
the irony of life, my description of it
It's all very complicated..
Why can't i just walk up to his door
knock, then tell him
what i wanted him to hear.
Then i could just stop regretting
what i didn't do.
I need to, before its too late.
I need to..

Before somebody else could own his heart