An entry from June 20, 2007

I just finished my first class, Chemistry. Today i realized that it does not matter whether i am the weakest link or the class top nothing amongst valedictorians, salutatorians and honor rollers. It doesn't even matter what i am before. Here is a totally strange world where you could let your inner self out. I also realized my role to this society, in this university. I am here to express and learn not to impress others on what i am pretending to know.

College is a different river from what we came from. the current is stronger, the water deeper. if high school was you were dependent and if there's independence it is limited, college would be farther. you will be totally independent on your choices, on what you do. if teachers in high school are advisers and guidance counselors, here they are just the source of knowledge. You don't let them find you because they obviously won't. If in high school you'll spend your time being chased by teachers, college will be the other way around, looking for pins on a stack of needles. and then you'll see the irony in life: They give you a moment in heaven then they hit you like a baseball down into what seems like a living hell.

But now, as i see it, college would be interesting and fun.