To my noodle (3)

You were a happy soul
from before we came in contact.
I can't help but blame myself.
I should stop.
What we had is something special.
Would always be.
And that would never change.

I love you.
Yet it doesn't hurt
'cause I know,
You would be there when I call.
I love you
It doesn't hurt
so much from my past experiences.
I love you
but this is wrong, we are wrong.
And the situation bothers me,
more than loving you does.

This is me.
Prior to any beginning.
I'm sorry,
I've felt like I've used you.
Thank you.
The life lessons that you taught me
was enough to cover
the lifetime I've had.
With you, there was thrill
and I've been able to experience
a whole amount of love,
a whole amount of care,
an open environment where I could be me,
I could express myself fully.
Thank you.
- for this situation.
- for making me realize,
How I could be happy without a man.
You made me feel alive
not through the pain
but with the thinking
that I am blessed with a life
which I had taken for granted.

This may have been love.
I can't stand to wait and see.
Though, I still get the feeling
that I want to run to your back
I have to stop.
We have to stop.
Before we get into this lot of complications
that may end hurting a lot of people.
- You, who claimed not to be.
- Me, who refuses to believe it until it happens.
- and the mother of your child,
who has a lot of things to do with it.
It may have been that I fell out of love.
I love you, that would remain
to the point that my stomach hurts.
I am happy
to hear you say I love you back
but this had been too much
and we're going with the flow.

I'm tired of pretending.
I'm tired of feeling numb.
I'm tired of being told I'm wrong.
And I'm scared to admit
'cause I know you'll let me go when I did.
I may cry, a lot, for now.
And for the upcoming times.
You may feel guilt.
But this is for the both of us.





20-06-2013