To my noodle (2)

I don't wish to partake
in something I had to share
Had it been somebody else
I would have left without a trace.

Why you?
Why the complications?
Why risk being hurt for an unquenched desire
to be liked and loved in return?
Truth be told, I haven't a clue.
Truth be told, I knew recklessness.
And this,
is mingled with stupidity.

It happened too fast.
It happened without a thought.
Alcohol is in my veins
- I could never believe that it could be venom
influencing the mind.
Alcohol is adrenaline.
the rush that corrupts the brain.
The all too stupid facts
threw itself like oil spill
- fast, immersible, and hugely impacting.

It wasn't fast
I was in a rush.
My dignity, is something I couldn't preserve
I don't care.
My darkness is spreading.
I won't care.
My life is already chaotic
- adding a bit of complications
makes a living out of hell.






13-6-2013