Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Beyond the Border: First Encounter

He was fleeing.
Not that he couldn’t fight or that he was any weaker. He just didn’t want to make it more complicated as it was. After all, mages couldn’t be too perfect right?
He was getting a bit bored of the run around and was already taking most of his efforts to stop himself from being turning around to deal with the monstrosity chasing him. It was an exercise, they were told, to test how they would react in lieu of their natural environment. ‘Them’ were the demons, the ultimate foe of mankind and ones who were squandering innocent villages and killing bystanders.
He was running around in an effort to pass his time, his assigned demon already lost sight of him from a few moments back. When he felt an overwhelming energy sprouting almost suddenly. He stopped.
What an incredible control.
He knew from experience that controlling the energy from wielding could be tedious and that not a lot of mages (in training) could pass it off like THAT. Even demons that they’ve already studied and encountered were not able to exhibit such capability. He paused and concentrated, standing still assessing the surroundings. He was already at the far edge of the forest, no one within a 50 km estimated radius based on his initial scan. His mapping skills were incomparable, as what the masters of the academy told him, and within that radius he could easily map the heat signatures. He closed his eyes, trying to get a visual. He turned to run towards that hazy blot with such excitement – it was a first that he got an inconclusive response to his mapping.
He got to a small clearing, exactly as what he had mapped in his mind. It was more chaotic than he could imagine. His map showed him a hazy blot in a space, the actual space gives out an opaline gleam which he couldn’t make any sense apart from a powerful energy. In addition, he could sense that the energy was somehow limited to a certain range, like his mapping does. This particular range covers a rather small part in meters radius.
He opened his eyes, dispelling his map after memorizing the inconclusive image. The first thing that he saw was a demon.
A plantae type. Herbivore and attacks only by defense. It was a teenager, in terms of growth, about 6 feet in height. It’s built was man-like, bulky, lank, and nude in patches of the color of a variety of leaves. It stands erect on two limbs, two other pairs of limbs sticking on its flanks. One pair drawn to protect its chest, one pair in defense poised to attack once provoked.
He lifted his eyes to its face. It was apparently stronger than the demon chasing him. It was hostile, distracted even, that it didn’t even notice anything apart from what it was looking at. It was staring through solid black eyes, face contorted in fear (it was hard to tell as their faces lack too much of the human features) with its thin antennas quivering. He gave a start, it was quivering. He hadn’t seen demons quiver before.
“You can understand me, can you?”
The voice startled him. This was probably what the demon had been looking at. He didn’t notice anything but the demon, and when he found the object to where the energy was emanating, his eyes widened at the sight of its owner. A mage novice. A tiny one. She looks about one of the youngest prospects who entered the academy, only 14-15 years of age. She had her back turned from him, but she is clearly wearing a novice uniform. It had a ring and 5 beads – an indication that she was on her first year, 5 months from when she entered the academy. It was not surprising that there should be a novice within these woods, it is a joint session between them and the transcendence. What was surprising was how he could feel her presence more than the demon itself.
“Then hear me out, little one. See, I don’t mean any harm.” She was answering to a gesture the demon made that he missed upon his observing her.
What is she doing?
He casted all prejudices aside to contemplate later, he felt the need to observe this unusual exchange. Gradually, he felt the changes. The energy declined. Dramatically. He felt more of the demon now contrast to the massive energy she had been emitting earlier. The energy dropped almost next to nothingness and he saw how the demon visibly relaxed. The novice raised he hand a bit slightly in a non-threatening manner as if to show the demon on how she is surrendering to what she had been demanding, and walked towards it slowly, cautious even, but confident. Her long black hair swaying with the wind.
What are you doing, fearless one?”
“I…” She stopped. “…am letting you go.”
It was a split second, he saw her hand lift outstretched, level to her shoulders before there was an instant moment of bright light. He couldn’t tell where the light came from, it was as if he closed his eyes and found the bright light instead of darkness. When he was brought by to his senses, and the light seemed that it never existed, the demon was already gone. He was stunned, she couldn’t have killed it. She was just a novice. It was altogether too clean for annihilation even for the most powerful.
What did she do?
A sounding alarm went off. It was a signal that the exercise is just about done. The novice still had her back turned from him and was just about to go when he found his voice. He coughed just on the slightest, almost inaudible but was satisfyingly enough. At least for the novice. She turned towards the noise, her wide eyes, bright red like fresh blood, staring fearfully at his. He’s already pressed for time.
“I’ll see you around.”



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I've had a lot of Neurotic Tendencies, er, daydreaming fantasy and stuff.

For K

Loving you is an Ethereal Bliss
                that sets the f i r e w o r k s
                                in an uncanny motion
- the dizzying lights:
                a sunburst of faded colors,
    bright as cosmic rays.

Your Love feels like a f
                                              a
                                                  L
                                                      L
     f r e e d o m       from jumping
                when you're acrophobic
   like stars,
like comets plummeting in
                speeds of light
like rains of silvers amidst
                                a dark blanket
     in haste to kiss the
                                                  ground
collapsing in an agreeing echo.

Your Love brings tears to my eyes
when I thought my soul has dried
                H U M A N I T Y
                                in me.

Your Love, the opposite of wicked -
   the selfless desire that lights candles
with a breath of   a  i  r

Your Love is no Hearts
but         flowers                 without roots
    wishes             that heeded                       nothing,
songs with no                     music
                music with no                     captions
                                captions with no                              words

Your Love is a MAGNUM OPUS -
timeless  t h e m e  that held        No Limits.

Your Love is my
                                       anchor,
                one that sets
   a thread - thin as it may - back to the
                                                                     ground


The place I was made

                                                The place where we met. //030716

Life Update: The Story in Between bouts of Something

Classes have started barely a month over and I still can't get over the fact that I've only enrolled in two courses - which is something my mom can't believe I've done but can't do anything about.
Not that I have any other options, though I've had choices. We all have choices. If there was one thing that I've learned from all the movies I've watched, all the books I've read: We always have choices. Even having no choice is choosing not to choose.

So, options. And the situation I'm wading in:
(1) I'm not working.
I wished and I'm looking but that doesn't mean that I wanted to. I kinda succumb myself to the fact that I cannot be a working student as I tend to let go of the student part. (Being an undergraduate at my age is such a nag. I can't move on until I appeased what my mother wanted for me. I can't move on until I caved to stereotypical society telling me that I had to have a degree in order to belong to the educated masses.) I spend most of my time wallowing in self-destructive thoughts whilst projecting depression to my not-so-long-distanced boyfriend. Sometimes (okay, MOST of the time) I read books.

(2) Extra-curricular activity
Did I ever mention I'm part of the school publication?
Not that it was something. SOMETHING.
I liked the challenge when I applied. I've always loved writing. In campus journalism or plain journalism - I liked voicing what I thought. Column-ing, if you may. The creative writing of a non-fictitious something called Feature Writing. Literary poetry. I hate news and current events.
I think editing counts as an expression for my love of grammar and the English vocabulary.
I've used a miniscules of my spare time contemplating quiting but not really pushing through - I might regret it. I might not. I'm just lazy. But I'm getting something out of it anyway, so I might as well stick.

(3) Diseases and "You reap what you sow"
That's probably the mantra we have at home whenever we can't EAT what we want. Specifically, my dad. Diabetes is a sucker with the whole lifestyle change and shit. When we won't follow, complications lurk.
It's a sad life when you're eating cardboard viands and saltless soggy stuff while everyone else basically eats spices and oils and lard. Stuff that you can't eat just because.
And the medicines. I held the family budget and I'm technically scraping the bottom of the barrel to meet the week's end. I can't even do Starbucks or any acquired vice based on coffee shops and wifi.


Well, that's about the flip side. My usual train of thought if I'm not thinking about poetic scraps, deadlines, or stuff.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Review on 'The Magician's Apprentice'

In the remote village of Mandryn, Tessia serves as assistant to her father, the village Healer. Her mother would rather she found a husband. But her life is about to take a very unexpected turn. When the advances of a visiting Sachakan mage get violent, Tessia unconsciously taps unknown reserves of magic to defend herself. Lord Dakon, the local magician, takes Tessia under his wing as an apprentice. The long hours of study and self-discipline also offer more opportunities than she had ever hoped for, and an exciting new world opens up to her. There are fine clothes and servants—and, to Tessia's delight—regular trips to the great city of Imardin. But along with the excitement and privilege, Tessia is about to discover that her magical gifts bring with them a great deal of responsibility. For great danger looms on the horizon for Tessia and her world.
(Summary from Goodreads)
(Photo from Goodreads)

This is what compelled me to write a review when can't normally compose myself enough to write a decent one. NOT that this review would ever be decent but I guess it'll somehow sum up the feelings invoked upon my... dealings with the book. I have few issues/observations/Comments with the entirety of the book and words could never give justice to what I felt when I finished the novel- But there you go:
First, the overall theme was fine. I loved the idea that there was that something new that took a woman to have been discovered. I was drawn by the story from reading the summary and somehow reading through the first chapter encourages me to read on. The whole medieval feels realistic based on the imagery that can be derived from it, and the magicians, and monarchy. Politics, though it wasn't a central theme, could never be divorced with hierarchies and wars could never eliminate deaths. I liked how discrimination had been exhibited with gender stereotypes. It certainly empowered women with highlighting the achievements lead by women behind or in the frontlines. Then there was Romance. I had to admit - this was the one thing that kept me from ditching the book entirely.
Second, the characters were consistent enough. At least if I didn't consider their inner thoughts - which had been all over the place and somehow misplaced. The inner thoughts could have been okay if it were told in a one-person point of view - not the shifting perspective that kind of left out the use of imagination and inference with reading. Instead of liking at least one character - I ended up hating them. It was like I got a full view of the personalities and that somehow made them all too similar. I couldn't take sides in the story because I understood their predicaments which overly impacted how I felt in reading the book. Because it somehow made things too calculative, in my perspective, I somehow got lost with using the magic in reading novels - the whole escapism point gone with too much explanation. THIS had been the major turn-off factor for me.
Lastly, the entire plot had been too long drawn to the point where I almost skimmed through the pages. I hated the whole Hanara perspective for some reason. Stara's perspective which didn't really clarified her role in the entire story until the ending when war was breaking. The story itself had some hasty conclusions which could probably be accounted for it being a prequel into a series - BUT that in itself should be able to stand alone or at least INVITE to read further on.
The entire experience somehow felt traumatic that I was unsure whether to read any other works of Trudi Canavan in the future.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

His Perpetual Love Story

Her difference stands out

Black hair. Short in stature.
Face painted in pallid shade.
Blank mask, faded impressions.

The way her shoulders hunch to hide
The way her hair falls to obscure her face
The way her hands tucked to turn invisible
The way she could lose in the sea of people
Milling in, coming out, destroying her.

It takes guts to seduce the food for the gods.

Hers is a book I couldn't wait to read
Hers is a song I wouldn't tire in hearing
Her voice is a spell, her voice is a charm
Hers is a void, I wouldn't mind losing into

She laughs like a hundred chimes in the wind
Happiness that spreads like disease
She smiles like a thousand lights
Colors that burst like the sun
She sees through the broken glass
She held the life of me at the palm of her hands

She became the light of my darkest way
She is the love of my life.

She is my love.
She is my life.

She never left.
I disappeared.

She is always there.
Until.

She was. //012215

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Preemption

I graduated with honors
Excited with the second phase
I was 12.

I became vain.
My body is sacred. I am beautiful.
Men adored me.
I was 14.

I never knew love
Like I knew how his words
Swept me off my feet.
I was 15.

It was pleasure. This was pleasure.
It wasn't just a child play.
I'm grown up.
I was 16.

That was a mistake.

My future halts,
A child on its way. //

Homeless

Son, I left food in the microwave.
Your dad is on another business trip.
Don’t wait up, I’ll be home late.

Madilim nanaman ang paligid
Ang katahimikang babasag sa kabingihan
Subukan ko kayang umupo sa tabi
- panghawi lang sa nahahapong damdamin.

Really now, I don’t have the time
I have to work to feed us, you know?
Besides, I never raised you just to be second best!

Para saan pa at kumuha ng patimpalak
Kung sila man ay hindi makaalala
Marahil sapat na ang nagaalab na pagnanasa
- walang mararating ang karangalang hayok sa paapuri.

You probably got it from dallying too much
You should start acting like a grown up.
I never raised a son who misbehaved.

Alin ang tama sa maling lipunan,
Alin ang mali sa bulag na palakad,
Kung ang tahanang kinalakhan ay tumuro sa iba?
Sino pa ang gagabay sa batang ligaw?

Son, it’s because I love you that I have to leave
This is all for your future’s sake.
That someday, we’ll live in a pool of gold, never worrying.

Ina, binansagang ilaw ngunit pundi
Ama, haliging sa ibang bahay bumabakod
Ba’t hindi niyo balikan ang bukang-liwayway
Gusto ko mang umuwi,

Pero saan ako lulugar?// 100515




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