Boringly Average.
That's what my whole existence
is.
I'm already at my last year of
high school.
Figured.
All I could ever bother about
are the endless exams and preparations for college.
Not that I ever wanted to.
I don't.
But a girl like me, what am I
supposed to do after graduation?
An option is to work my ass off
- hell yeah. Yeah right.
Another one is live like a
parasite - if you knew my parents, it's probably not a good idea.
Suicide is one thing - who
would? And why would I?
Boredom?
My only option, of course,
would be college.
Unless I found someone to marry
me.
Preferably someone rich, but
any man can honestly do.
As long as I don't have to
work.
I'm one lazy ass, as you'd
probably noticed.
So then on, one day, I was
walking to school like any other day.
Minding my own business,
thinking about these stuff when I almost died.
That's right, I almost died
when some moron was walking like a drunk asshole in the road.
What's that got to do with me?
Well, the moron nearly collided
with the ongoing car that was obviously driven by another drunk bastard.
How did I almost die by saving
the bastard?
I was on the other side of the
road and the only way to save the bastard was to push him, so the car ended up
nearly hitting me, who was just trying to help.
The end product?
I got an arm injury ending up
in some cast.
Great.
"Uh,
Miss braids!"
I heard someone call.
I turned around. It was the
drunk asshole bastard.
I waited for him to catch up.
He's wearing a suit. He looks
about mid-twenties.
If not for my earlier prejudice
against him I would have found him good-looking.
But right now, I'm pissed.
Well?
He was catching his breath.
Taking his time.
I'm freaking pissed.
"I
want to apologize to what happened earlier and of course to offer you my
thanks."
"No
problem."
I turned to leave before I give
this guy a piece of my mind.
"Huh?"
"I
said, it's no problem. Any sane person would've done the same thing. You don't
have to offer any thanks. I appreciate the thought anyway."
I was really really pissed. One
more push and he's gonna get it -
"A-are
you sure, that's i--?"
"Look.
I'm trying to be nice here so bear with me. No, listen. First, next time, go to
work with your hangover washed out I don't freaking care about your stupid
problems. Second, when somebody says it's 'all right and I appreciate the
thought', it might be a little better to leave that person be, since that
person might be feeling a little murderous about something - like being
bothered for instance. No, maybe I'm pissed because you are acting like a flirt
and flirts make me want to hurl, then die on some freaking corner. I'm not
saying that all people are like that but please -- what are you laughing
at?"
He was obviously suppressing
his laughter.
"I…
haha… sorry… haha… it's just… t-that… haha…"
It took a while before he could
actually talk straight.
"I'll
really treat you as a token of my appreciation. Come on."
I realized I wasn't that pissed
anymore since I probably released all that anger through that monologue, and
so, agreed to his proposal.
He wasn't such an ass as I
thought he would be.
For someone like me, he was
very considerate.
Apparently, he got tangled into
a staff night out.
Honestly, adults should be more
responsible with their life.
Look at me, I'm talking about
that.
He treated me to ramen in some
shop downtown, it was convenient for me since I lived a couple of blocks from
here.
"What
do you do anyway?"
"I
work for my father."
"As
what?"
"Let's
just say, I do paperwork all the time."
"Boring."
"You,
what do you plan to do after graduation? College?"
"My
parents want to."
But in reality I don't know
what to do.
No. I already know what to do.
I'm just embarrassed to admit
it out loud.
"But
what do you want?"
Is he seriously asking that?
"It's
a secret."
The next time I saw him again,
my arm was already healed.
I was going home with a scowl,
pouting mentally and silently cursing my homeroom adviser.
She didn't have to rub it in.
I don't mean to brag or
anything, but my grades were really far from average.
It wasn't an understatement to
say that because I'm currently ranked third from the whole year.
It's just that I don't really
care about my grades THAT much.
I mean, I study for exams
because I've got nothing to do.
In fact, I've done nothing but
study on my free times because I was so freaking bored.
So now, here I was walking home
with an armload of college application forms and brochures, like hell do I need
these things.
Maybe I'll let my parents
choose.
Maybe I'll just be a parasite.
Maybe I'll go on and apply for some
lame job that doesn't need a college diploma.
Or maybe I'll take suicide.
"Miss
braid?"
It was the drunk asshole.
Maybe I should start calling
him by some other name, you know, more decent than what I was secretly calling
him.
He treated me to ramen in that
same shop.
Since I was the one looking so
sulky, he listened to my complaints.
"You
are one bored little fellow."
Little?
"So?"
"Have
you ever thought about what you really wanted?"
Yes. I'm really just
embarrassed to admit what it is out loud.
"How
about you, is what you're doing the thing you really want?"
I decided to divert the whole
attention from me.
I never realized it could work,
dramatically.
He was silent.
It was the gravest moment in my
life, waiting for his answer.
"Maybe
I took a wrong turn somewhere because what I am having was something I didn't
think I could ever want."
"That's
stupid."
He looked at me, surprised at
my remark.
"I
mean, if you took a wrong turn, what's there to be hesitant about? You're still
young aren't you? How is it that it's too late? Work hard to make it happen,
things won't proceed with you just thinking where in the world did you make
that wrong turn. That's just plain moronic."
I took my time drinking from my
ramen bowl when I realized what I just did.
"You
never fails to surprise me."
"I
never intended to."
"Are
you sure you don't really want to tell me what you want?"
"Are
you for real?"
He became a frequent stranger
who came into my life.
As time goes by, with all the
talks between bowls of ramen.
We talk about life, our views
and thoughts about certain things.
Most of the time, he just
listens.
He seems mesmerized with the
words coming out of my mouth like it was some sort of wisdom.
I'm just stating facts though.
And as the time progressed, we,
the nameless strangers, I mean, I, probably did the most sinful thing that
could break this current relationship.
I fell in love. Hard.
Being the impatient being that
I was, I confessed to him.
He was apparently surprised.
"Why?"
"What
a stupid question."
I was being myself as always.
My sarcastic and uncaring-to-what-other-people-thinks self.
He was quiet and I noticed his
uneasiness.
It's over.
I felt a pang of deep regret to
what I just did.
When it seems that he wasn't
answering, I decided to stop his agony.
"I'm
sorry. I seemed to have caused you some disturbance."
I stood up and tried to smile
at him,
"Goodbye,
it's been nice seeing you. Thank you."
I never even looked back, at
least I didn't want him to see I had a heart.
And that I was crying my eyes
out for some drunk asshole who I never even asked the name.
When I told my parents what I
really wanted to do, they weren't the slightest surprised.
No. I was actually.
"We
knew."
Really?
"You
were never happy when receiving awards for your good standing in class."
Figures. They really are my
parents.
I told them I'd work. Until
such time that my 'requirement' would appear from nowhere.
At least, I'm still hoping I'd
meet the asshole but to no avail.
I still eat at the ramen stand
though.
But on times I knew he wouldn't
go there.
Even if I had to cut classes.
Graduation came.
Goodbyes.
Tears.
Freedom.
And my ever heartbroken
homeroom adviser crying her eyes out at me while looking disappointedly upon a
handful of scholarship offerings I blatantly turned down without even opening
my ears to what they had to say.
"You.
I gave you those opportunities and you just threw them away? Do you have any
idea how much trouble I had to go through?"
"Who
told you to, stupid?"
I turned around when I realized
who talked.
"I
already quit my job. Er, just now in fact."
"What
are you going to do now?"
He was a teacher from my
school.
"I'll
study medicine. Be a doctor. You? What is it that you really want?"
I went over. Kissed him on his
lips.
How unfair was it that people
never seemed to be surprise at the things I do?
"Then?
What is it?"
"Marry
me."
I secretly triumphed at his
reaction.
He was obviously surprised.
"You're
really sneaky, you know that?"
And in a much lower voice he
whispered before giving me another kiss,
"I
love you too."
Notes:
Somewhat like a draft.
Feels like I wanted to post it
here.
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criticisms.